9/13/18

I chickened out- never came clean...

This morning I brought in the mail for dad.

He flipped through the junk and pulled out one that was stamped with: "Martin                  Legal"

It was the will. 

I assumed the lawyer had taken issue with the stuff I added to dad's will, and that he sent a letter back asking WTF. 

My heart lurched up into my throat and I thought I was about to be found out. 

I pictured my dad yellign at me, or worse getting really sad and I had to sit down. 

I was wrong. 

It wasn't that at all. 

It was the full document- signed by the lawyer! 

A friend on google+ and a bunch of strangers on reddit told me I need to tell dad what I did and hope for forgiveness... They were right. I should have, but I was too chicken. Now teh document is set in stone. 

and I missed my chance to come clean. If dad reads the will now I will be in such deep shit. 

I don't even know how the lawyer didn't actually read the document he was signing! He's a fucking lawyer, he should know better. maybe because friends with dad, he just gave the big ok. Maybe he did read it... 

Who knows. 

Either way I have to live with the consequences now. fingers crossed, I hope this doesn't come back to bite me on the ass. 

I hope this doesn't come back to make dad upset or lose faith in me. 

Ahhh! I don't know how to feel right now. 

Gonna keep my fingers crossed and just hope for the best.